I apologize for the blog silence. I have been working and am in the process of moving to a much more beautiful place where I will have wide open space, mountains and well water. I am hoping that community will be present where I am going, as I can sure as heck say that it is not where I am currently in NJ. The town I am moving to has a population less than 400. Amen people, because I would much rather see the stars in all their natural glory on any day. I am done with convenience and am ready to get deep into my own soul and connect to God in a way that I don't feel is possible here. The energy here is too off for that vibration to come in consistently no matter how much I meditate, pray or sage.
The universe has sent me all kinds of signs saying its time to move on, some of them majorly annoying (I am going to spare you all this drama). My biggest concern is that I am where I am because of one of the loves of my life, my son Alexander, is nearby. Alex has many medical issues and attends a special school and I am near it all to be with him and advocate when necessary or care for him when he is not feeling well.
We chat often, him and I, of having our own farm, of seeing and feeding the happy chickens and having some sheep so I can knit the "fur" as he calls it. Being a Mom gives my life such meaning. Yet nothing about this experience of motherhood has turned out like I had envisioned. This child has turned out to be my greatest teacher and because of him I feel that have earned a Phd in Love. As I have said in a previous post, Love does not cling or grasp to an illusion. Love lets go. Love knows that nothing, not even death, can sever that bond.
Perfect Love casts out Fear. So now I find myself getting deeper into Faith, trusting that if it is God's will, then a way will be made clear to have him join me in another group home in the new state. Nonetheless, I shall still be very much connected to his life through technology and frequent visits, even though I will be 6 hours away.......
We play this game I call Luv Bug's version of hide and seek. He says, "Mommy go hide", and I hide in the same spot I have hidden in for the last 5 years. He is always so surprised to find me. Then it is his turn to hide and I count to ten. Then I start calling, "Where is my Luv Bug?" I spot him and say "There you are!!". He says, Mommy you saved me!"
And I reply, "Oh no, Alexander. It was you who saved me." Because of what I went through with him, the profound heartache, the intense pain, the medical ignorance, broke me wide open.
And that, my dear friends, is how the light got in.
What I would like to humbly ask from my readers is this: If you feel so guided, would you please include us in your prayers? Transition is never easy. I am most certain your prayers would assist in this challenging time, and I would be very grateful. Prayers can move mountains.
You are greatly LOVED. Have a Peaceful week!
Ruth
Sunday, July 26, 2015
Friday, July 3, 2015
Change
Some days I find it quite the challenge to remain inspired while roaming about this planet like a lamb amongst a den of rabid wolves. Even knowing that they can't touch me, I still find it disheartening that so many are still being capitalized off of and have no idea about this in addition to keeping their minds closed. This motivates me to continue sharing what I have come to understand, as no force is involved to arrive here and more often than not it is because they are ready to open their mind to more. To face their fears, to integrate their shadow and arrive at self love. This makes my heart happy. BUT I had to do this for myself first and it is an ongoing, continuing process. You can't give what you don't have, right?
I have always wanted to be of service to others. When I went into nursing, back in the day when there was no Lord Google, or Youtube (GASP!!!!), I told myself I wanted to do this profession because I wanted to help people. Little did I know that the bureaucratic/political red tape that binds us along with the ANA and AMA governance nearly killed my whole plan and made it virtually impossible to truly help people, not to mention how it tried and nearly succeeded in taking my soul. I now see that the foundation of the healthcare profession is built on fear, not truth. There is another way to care for others and not get involved in all that nonsense that the world tries to impose on a soul. It's called doing your own work. Simple really as in when you elevate yourself you elevate others naturally. No huge energy expenditure, no waste of time. It's a win win.
Who really knows who they are at 18, let alone have done all the personal work necessary to clear out their ancestral and karmic baggage before thinking about what to devote the rest of their lives to. Most do not even consider this and it contributes to a whole lot of suffering. They go to a university and a huge amount of money is spent without any guarantee that it will provide them with employment, all the while the majority of the time being slowly hypnotized into seeking without rather than seek within. They may marry before they even find their own voice. They may have children and then the lessons that the parents did not clear will be passed on usually in a bigger experience.
But when we look within, and find that there is a light there so profoundly loving and infinite we feel compelled to do our own work. We realize that it is not selfish to do this and actually see the real selfishness lies in NOT doing it. All of our lessons/challenges become the opportunities to love deeper, practice patience, grow deeper in faith and free OURSELVES from the bondage that has run rampant on this planet. We stop feeling any need to project blame and instead ask God, "why is this situation in my life? What is the lesson I need to learn from this?"
Time will go on and we will learn to do better. This will radiate out to the planet and without you ever having to leave your residence you will be contributing greatly to raising the frequency of this planet out of the lower vibrations of guilt, despair, shame, humiliation, greed and lies to one of profound integrity and genuine love. Everything is energy. This truth gives me chills!
I wish for you a peaceful holiday weekend, with profound INDEPENDENCE from all ignorance.
You are profoundly loved.
Ruthie
I have always wanted to be of service to others. When I went into nursing, back in the day when there was no Lord Google, or Youtube (GASP!!!!), I told myself I wanted to do this profession because I wanted to help people. Little did I know that the bureaucratic/political red tape that binds us along with the ANA and AMA governance nearly killed my whole plan and made it virtually impossible to truly help people, not to mention how it tried and nearly succeeded in taking my soul. I now see that the foundation of the healthcare profession is built on fear, not truth. There is another way to care for others and not get involved in all that nonsense that the world tries to impose on a soul. It's called doing your own work. Simple really as in when you elevate yourself you elevate others naturally. No huge energy expenditure, no waste of time. It's a win win.
Who really knows who they are at 18, let alone have done all the personal work necessary to clear out their ancestral and karmic baggage before thinking about what to devote the rest of their lives to. Most do not even consider this and it contributes to a whole lot of suffering. They go to a university and a huge amount of money is spent without any guarantee that it will provide them with employment, all the while the majority of the time being slowly hypnotized into seeking without rather than seek within. They may marry before they even find their own voice. They may have children and then the lessons that the parents did not clear will be passed on usually in a bigger experience.
But when we look within, and find that there is a light there so profoundly loving and infinite we feel compelled to do our own work. We realize that it is not selfish to do this and actually see the real selfishness lies in NOT doing it. All of our lessons/challenges become the opportunities to love deeper, practice patience, grow deeper in faith and free OURSELVES from the bondage that has run rampant on this planet. We stop feeling any need to project blame and instead ask God, "why is this situation in my life? What is the lesson I need to learn from this?"
Time will go on and we will learn to do better. This will radiate out to the planet and without you ever having to leave your residence you will be contributing greatly to raising the frequency of this planet out of the lower vibrations of guilt, despair, shame, humiliation, greed and lies to one of profound integrity and genuine love. Everything is energy. This truth gives me chills!
I wish for you a peaceful holiday weekend, with profound INDEPENDENCE from all ignorance.
You are profoundly loved.
Ruthie
Wednesday, July 1, 2015
The Judgment of Appearances
When I became more of a learner and observer, life got interesting. I could CLEARLY see how nothing here, NOTHING is as it seems. In previous posts I have written how we have nothing but illusions here, illusions of wellness in healthcare (my preferred word is hellcare as it is more accurate), illusions of protection from a military, illusions of spirituality and truth from religion, illusions of wisdom from an education, and illusions of order from a government. I could go on and on describing more illusions such as that of the child protection services from state funded entities and more (in NJ let me refer you to the atrocities that occurred within the DYFS system around the year 2002), but I am sure that by now you get the idea. We could go very rabbit hole here and start discussing the fact that there are elites/politicians that are actively practicing satanists who subscribe to pedophilia and they are the majority. I refer you to the book by John DeCamp entitled "The Franklin Cover Up", as well as the book by Noreen Gosch entitled "Why Johnny can't Come Home." These are only two views of what has been going on here for eons. You can also find Youtube videos with them and they are excellent. Also consider checking out the documentary called "Conspiracy of Silence". satanists cannot generate their own energy, so they steal it from children and the spiritually naive. (WARNING!! There is exceptionally graphic descriptions of the horrendous abuses in the above mentioned books and documentaries and they may be triggers for you. Watch mindfully only when you feel fully ready and Spirit Led.)
I would like to suggest you take a moment and ponder how you arrive at your conclusion of something/someone being "good". So often we will say, "Oh he is such a good person, blah blah blah," and yet we may only know a small part of who he REALLY is. While were out campaigning for his "goodness" in truth he could be doing an infinite number of NOT GOOD things that you have no idea about. So in reality, it is best not to assume goodness on any appearances, for your perspective greatly limits you. However when one is sensitive as I am, you can read energy exceptionally clearly and recognize the lie, deceit or malicious behavior without the other character ever saying a word. It gets really interesting when you start to read the mind. This is a gift to everyone, and all one needs to do to access it is calm down, get yourself out of the frustration/fear vibration and align up with truth. Learn to trust yourself and your guidance and not doubt. Doubt is one of the weapons of the enemy, especially self doubt, as he knows that "a house divided against itself cannot stand." satan goes about here everyday trying to get you to hop on the road to self destruction and your job is to say "NO! I've got the Divine authority of Jesus Christ and you will now get out of my way."
Just let him try to violate your free will. He knows he can't, but do YOU know that?
And then ye shall know the truth and the truth shall make you free.
Truth be told I absolutely hate it here on Earth as things are profoundly not going to end up well for humans, but I know I am here only on assignment (as the Reverend Bill Johnson says!!). This is not my home and once I accepted that fact, I was able to relinquish my resistance to the ignorance here and turn it into a passion that feeds souls who are genuinely ready for this information. Everything is backwards, so many seem to care more about what's on American Idol than how our children, older adults, and animals are being treated, how the planet is truly dying because of our neglect or homelessness and poverty. We still have people in this country procreating like there is an infinite number of resources still available, instead of being consciously mindful and really taking a truthful look at what is going on. While it seems that pride goes out and encourages some to hang flags, I feel more cosmically aligned with wanting PEACE for all sentient beings and not just make some contribution to something that causes further separation instead of unity and may fuel another meaningless war.
The good news is that LOVE is now flooding in and correcting everything, however this will look catastrophic to many. For me, it is not about the quantity of my years here but rather the quality of my seconds and how much did I authentically love. It is about being of service to the soul rather than the personality. It is about living devoted to truth and integrity no matter what.
For me, it is about staying in the Love of God when all hell is breaking out.
Friends, QUESTION EVERYTHING. Get aligned with Divine Wisdom.
There are two ways to walk to the gas chamber: Free or Not Free.
No matter what, I sincerely want you all to be FREE.
I love you greatly!
Ruth
I would like to suggest you take a moment and ponder how you arrive at your conclusion of something/someone being "good". So often we will say, "Oh he is such a good person, blah blah blah," and yet we may only know a small part of who he REALLY is. While were out campaigning for his "goodness" in truth he could be doing an infinite number of NOT GOOD things that you have no idea about. So in reality, it is best not to assume goodness on any appearances, for your perspective greatly limits you. However when one is sensitive as I am, you can read energy exceptionally clearly and recognize the lie, deceit or malicious behavior without the other character ever saying a word. It gets really interesting when you start to read the mind. This is a gift to everyone, and all one needs to do to access it is calm down, get yourself out of the frustration/fear vibration and align up with truth. Learn to trust yourself and your guidance and not doubt. Doubt is one of the weapons of the enemy, especially self doubt, as he knows that "a house divided against itself cannot stand." satan goes about here everyday trying to get you to hop on the road to self destruction and your job is to say "NO! I've got the Divine authority of Jesus Christ and you will now get out of my way."
Just let him try to violate your free will. He knows he can't, but do YOU know that?
And then ye shall know the truth and the truth shall make you free.
Truth be told I absolutely hate it here on Earth as things are profoundly not going to end up well for humans, but I know I am here only on assignment (as the Reverend Bill Johnson says!!). This is not my home and once I accepted that fact, I was able to relinquish my resistance to the ignorance here and turn it into a passion that feeds souls who are genuinely ready for this information. Everything is backwards, so many seem to care more about what's on American Idol than how our children, older adults, and animals are being treated, how the planet is truly dying because of our neglect or homelessness and poverty. We still have people in this country procreating like there is an infinite number of resources still available, instead of being consciously mindful and really taking a truthful look at what is going on. While it seems that pride goes out and encourages some to hang flags, I feel more cosmically aligned with wanting PEACE for all sentient beings and not just make some contribution to something that causes further separation instead of unity and may fuel another meaningless war.
The good news is that LOVE is now flooding in and correcting everything, however this will look catastrophic to many. For me, it is not about the quantity of my years here but rather the quality of my seconds and how much did I authentically love. It is about being of service to the soul rather than the personality. It is about living devoted to truth and integrity no matter what.
For me, it is about staying in the Love of God when all hell is breaking out.
Friends, QUESTION EVERYTHING. Get aligned with Divine Wisdom.
There are two ways to walk to the gas chamber: Free or Not Free.
No matter what, I sincerely want you all to be FREE.
I love you greatly!
Ruth
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