Surrendered

I was having a bit of a tough morning today, as I am in yet another "allergic reaction" to who knows what food and this translated into is a face full of itching, red, welts that burn.  I should be used to this by now, since it has gone on for over five years, and it no longer scares the cat.  It started at a time in my life when I was finally facing my fears of not being able to make it on my own, of simply being alone and having to rely only on myself for everything.  I was finally able to get going on doing authentic work on myself in a deeper way than ever before in my life, with a few detours along the way.  It started at a time when I left a going no where 6 year relationship and rented a home where I finally felt like I could just be me.  Needing no one else's opinion, therefore not needing to conform to things that were adverse to my nature in any way any longer, one would think that it should have been the best time of my life.  Ohhhhhhhh, but I had miles to go before I slept.  Old patterns of fear,  self hatred, self doubt and poor self esteem crept up and infested my mind and this manifested in two more attempts at having a relationship with let's just say not so nice guys.  Not shocking to me, since I knew they existed, for I had to escape a family of them (meaning: not so nice men), and then divorce one, but I was just so CERTAIN that I had changed the pattern in myself that attracted this ignorance, which obviously was not the case.  Finally, with my lessons learned, I made a personal commitment to not enter another relationship until I knew my work was done so that I would attract a man who respected women, who was creative and thoughtful and kind.  Who loved animals.  I could go on here, but I am sure you get the idea.  Men were not the problem, for the root cause here were my wrong beliefs (believing the lies of the enemy) that attracted the ignorance that I had so often experienced. 

Sadly it seems I am a slow learner, who required great pain to get the meaning of the lesson.

I promise you, if you keep reading you will see a point here and it will correspond with the title of this post.

Fast forward five years or so, to the present day.  I just sold most of what I had worked hard to obtain to move to a state where I know no one.  I have voluntarily remained single.  I have devoted myself to cleansing out my soul and deepening my connection to God every single day.  It is not an easy journey to be sure, but it is one that provides my life with real meaning.  As I had mentioned in a previous post, for far too long I placed my faith in "man" and was horribly disappointed.  When I place my faith in God, that is where it belongs and then wisdom comes in when I need it.

The wisdom that God sent me regarding the above matters required my forgiveness before I would see anything change.  Yeah, yeah God, ok I forgive.  Obviously, it was not complete.  I was still dealing with ignorance that had some semblance of previous life experiences.  I was and am having these huge reactions which I allowed to make me feel like I am a spiritual fraud or something. I started to feel like God was mad at me, or there was some huge thing I was missing entirely.

So, again, this morning did not have what would appear to be a great start.  Face looking like a tragedy, my spirit sad and crushed from yet another reaction and no sign of when this will end, I decided to put on some music while I worked out my frustration in my journal.

There was this peaceful presence that came in and it was then that I heard it very, very clearly:

I'm Waiting For You, Ruthie.

This was stated with such LOVE, that I knew immediately that this was from God.  I knew what he meant.  He had been waiting for me to fully, and completely hand over ALL of my unforgiveness.  All of it.  I was simply not allowed to make any more excuses on why I felt like I had to keep any of it.  What's more, I cannot describe how very much I finally felt like I did not MIND one bit to hand it all over, where in the past I had resistance especially with the events that I judged as unjust.  I felt the presence of Jesus come in and I handed it all over to him and said I am so very thankful for your patience with me, for waiting for me to be finally ready to do this.  

Tear streaming down my face in pure, utter gratitude I said:  "It's all yours.  I no longer want it.  Take what I am not conscious of too as I am not going to need it." 

The utter peace I feel is amazing.  There is pure lightness of my Spirit, the Joy my soul has is ineffable.  God provided me with a house call today because he knew my spirit was sick.  

Friends, today my face may be red, but my soul was gently and lovingly washed white today.  Today, I forgave it all and handed it over.  It truly is the only way to undo the chains of the past and be free.  

I wish the same for all of you.  I love you greatly.

Ruth    

         

One Nation, Under Influence, with the illusion of freedom and justice for all

We are on the verge of entering into the most life changing month ever to have happen here on this planet.  September 2015 promises to clear out all the lies and cleanse/purify all of the error.  All that has been hidden shall be revealed.  I have waited my whole life for this moment, the moment where all illusions are blown away and all that's left is the ugly truth of how very unconscious the masses have been and how they have been blindly in service to satan.  Service to self and the personality instead of the SOUL.  In all this "service" to everything but GOD, now is when GOD shall let all know that he is and has always been in charge.  The LORD has been set into motion, and there is absolutely nothing that can stop it.  This needs to happen, for there has been enough opportunity for humanity to self correct, and it has not chosen to follow that path.  Since there was no voluntary conscious decision to give up service to the BEAST, it will be taken from us.  Instead of serving Authentic Love, humanity has chosen to serve himself.  Instead of letting the LORD provide, we seem to think that we need to provide everything for ourselves.  We fail at doing our own soul work, purging out all that is not of the Father and start to compensate day after day for the transgressions.

You cannot fill a cup that is already full.       

To those who have bought into the LIE, and chose (probably unconsciously) to serve the MAN, things are going to appear extremely catastrophic.  While they partake in things being "random and products of fate" GOD is going to give them a little wake up call.  They are going to see that money cannot buy salvation, human "connections" cannot save them, fancy clothes, jewelry and the healthy 401K and bank accounts are not going to be able to do one good thing for them.  The only safe place to reside at this time is in the will and love of GOD, in the loving comfort of Jesus Christ.  Translated another way, is that to enter into the love and protection of GOD, one must practice a Christ inspired life with love and forgiveness.  No one can come unto the Father except through the son.  We must empty the cup.

Let me share my understanding of WHY this is going to be allowed to happen.  Humans have bought into the lie that we need to suffer and struggle and work HARD for everything, when the truth of the matter is as Jesus said "I have come that ye may have life and have it more abundantly."  We have been conditioned since birth to feel we are lowly and powerless, all the while those who KNOW that humanity is violating spiritual law every single day, make all the provision necessary to capitalize off of the ignorance, much like a parasite on a host.  We have taken as truth that we must have the mortgage, the car loan, the student loans, the credit cards ect, however, this is incorrect.  To partake in these things is to doubt the ability of GOD to provide for you, in his own time based on your application of spiritual law.  So many are impatient (myself included) and want what they want right now.  Then the bait is set and the enemy can infiltrate your camp.  Since the belief that you must need money to survive has been planted, this is what is being manifested in your life.  Then they keep on creating other dependencies to keep you a slave.  The enemy here has cleverly instilled into humanity that evil is good and good is evil.  This is just so backwards, but not surprising since we can see the origin. Many feel that sickness is normal, that taking some synthetic thing as a dependency is acceptable.  While using anything as a temporary bridge until we arrive at causation is OK, the dependency of anything is a snare of the enemy.  So, instead of clearing and releasing that anger, you pop a pill and think that takes care of the matter.  Meanwhile, all this dependency and violation of spiritual law (such as unforgiveness and long held anger) is creating an energetic derangement within the body system, and what at first was hypertension now becomes a stroke.  Because you did not learn the lesson the first time, it was presented again in a more assertive manner so as to hopefully gain your attention.  So very few look at how they are contributing to their condition, and instead choose blame.  No growth comes from that choice, and one just stays a slave. Debt and illness are just two examples of how humans are made dependent on the beast.  Of course this can be changed any time a soul decides to serve faith, truth and love.

We can either choose to disengage from it or die trying to defend it.  It is all a choice. 

He who is within you is greater than he that is in the world.  Get your mind sovereign and your heart clear.  Renew your mind with the truths of God.

I love you greatly Friends.

Ruth

   

Understanding Light

The UN has declared this year to be the Year of Light.  I would like to share some further personal insights of light and its meaning.

In new age circles, you hear a lot about application of with the light: call on the light, inhale the light, fill your being with light, and to some extent this is true.  However with all this getting, we have failed to arrive at an understanding that there is more to consider when working with the light.  

In the Book of Enoch, we learn about the "watchers". They are also mentioned in the Bible.  These watchers are part of the Fall of Angels, and they are watching all of the races of earth for any transgression and taking note.  They can appear human, but most times these things are multidimensional.  Make no mistake about it, they are all about making things appear as though they are one way, when reality would tell a much different story.    They enjoy chaos as it feeds them.  I am certain you can see that they are the minions of satan as well.  

So, these Watchers fell, along with Lucifer (which means "light bearer").  The light that is mentioned here is typically referred to as knowledge.  OH MY GOD.  Knowledge you say, Ruth?  Yep, its knowledge.  But as with everything, we need to question further.  In Genesis we see how the serpent tempted Eve to eat from THE TREE OF KNOWLEDGE, and then Adam also tasted the forbidden "fruit" (do not even get me started on how crazy it is to blame Eve for "tempting"Adam.  I am most certain Adam had perfectly working vocal cords and a sound mind that could have said clearly NO).  Then they knew they were naked, developed shame and guilt and you know where this is going.  All because of the false light of knowledge. 

When I said knowledge protects, ignorance endangers in a previous post from the channeled information of Cassiopea, I would now replace the word knowledge for the word WISDOM.  Knowledge is how satan operates.  Knowledge is left brained, linear and logical.  Knowledge, if that is all one has and seeks for, will ultimately destroy that life.  Knowledge is nothing without the application of creativity and the intuitive heart. What does one really ever truly KNOW anyway?  Just when you think knowledge has saved your ass from another conflict, along comes a bigger one that hopefully will act as dynamite to blast one out of its knowledge based comfort zone and into a reality where knowledge and love become bonded through spiritual marriage (the Father and I are one). In a short time frame, this loving couple produce offspring they call wisdom.  
 
How else may this be demonstrated?  Using only one hemisphere of the brain more than the other.  In this country the systems are typically addicted to the left brain only, but this is in process of changing for the better.  We can see where all this "knowledge" of the left brain has put humanity: into its 6th human extinction with a planet that is on life support.  Knowledge has served itself over and over again and never asked the heart what was important to her.  It just kept on taking and taking until now, when there is very little left to take.  Knowledge is all satan has for he has no love within him to arrive at any wisdom.  So he uses aggressive and deceitful means to obtain whatever he wants by instilling fear, doubt and survival vibrations by attacking one through their own mind.  Humanity has fallen naively for it all and bought into the lie.  It's very sad.  

So, if you are one of those who use light in your energy work I am going to tell you what I do.  I state my intention that the light I am calling on comes only from the highest, most loving, truthful compassionate, graceful, merciful source of God energy and WISDOM. 

May you all have a beautiful and peaceful week filled with all the wonder of wisdom.

You are greatly loved.

Ruth















  

Compensation is Killing Us

Because there has been so much violation in spiritual law, humanity has decided that compensation for this transgression is "normal".  Rather than facing our fears, speaking our TRUTHS, and always acting from the foundation of Authentic Love, we have learned settled for much much less than our Divine inheritance.  We have chosen to sell our soul. 

This starts from the time you enter onto this planet, maybe looking towards your parents as "gods"and making their beliefs/opinions yours, without ever exploring if these are even true for you.  So for instance, you may have wanted to be an artist, but they told you there is no stability in that, and then sent you off on your way to get a degree in some other such bullshit that would not feed your soul but destroy it in the long run, most likely because this is what was done to them. 

All because you believed those to whom you had given your authority/power to. 

I must say that whenever I had placed my faith in any human, I was tremendously disappointed most times.  So many today are not in full possession of their own minds let alone able to control their actions and so I keep my faith where it belongs now, which for me is with God.  I learned this after decades of intense suffering.  I put my faith in my parents/family and was horribly let down.  Over and over again, I would disregard the past experiences I had with them which was always some form of service to self rather than operating from love and authenticity.  This is not to say I now walk around blaming these souls for my life's tribulations: I got them this time around to learn lessons that my soul was seeking.  The biggest lessons were to stop giving my power away and making anyone else an authority in my life as well as transcendence of the personality and ego.  I cannot express how very difficult this lifetime had been, however, even with all the difficulty I have been blessed with opportunity to expand my heart and mind (which results in wisdom) to levels that I only could imagine previously.

So when we don't clear the parent issue, this then will play out its theater in your life in other ways: your boss, partners, associates, friends, will take on the role, you get the idea.  The players may change, however the play will remain the same (and magnify) until you learn the lesson.  We keep compensating, not living our truths and we pay dearly for it.  This compensation extends itself out into every area of life now.  Instead of living in alignment with spiritual law, compensation with the option of a bazillion things takes it place and no spiritual growth results.  It is no wonder at all to me that this planet is in the state it is in.  We have the consciousness of children running around in adult bodies, trying to play house instead of serving their souls and choosing to mature. 

Choose to grow.  Choose to become the authority of your own life, with God.  Choose to be free.

After all, it is a CHOICE.

I love you greatly.  Enough to tell you the truth.

Ruth     











   

Moving Mountains

I apologize for the blog silence.  I have been working and am in the process of moving to a much more beautiful place where I will have wide open space, mountains and well water.  I am hoping that community will be present where I am going, as I can sure as heck say that it is not where I am currently in NJ.  The town I am moving to has a population less than 400.  Amen people, because I would much rather see the stars in all their natural glory on any day.  I am done with convenience and am ready to get deep into my own soul and connect to God in a way that I don't feel is possible here.  The energy here is too off for that vibration to come in consistently no matter how much I meditate, pray or sage.

The universe has sent me all kinds of signs saying its time to move on, some of them majorly annoying (I am going to spare you all this drama).  My biggest concern is that I am where I am because of one of the loves of my life, my son Alexander, is nearby.  Alex has many medical issues and attends a special school and I am near it all to be with him and advocate when necessary or care for him when he is not feeling well.

We chat often, him and I, of having our own farm, of seeing and feeding the happy chickens and having some sheep so I can knit the "fur" as he calls it.  Being a Mom gives my life such meaning.  Yet nothing about this experience of motherhood has turned out like I had envisioned.  This child has turned out to be my greatest teacher and because of him I feel that have earned a Phd in Love.  As I have said in a previous post, Love does not cling or grasp to an illusion.  Love lets go.  Love knows that nothing, not even death, can sever that bond.

Perfect Love casts out Fear.  So now I find myself getting deeper into Faith, trusting that if it is God's will, then a way will be made clear to have him join me in another group home in the new state.  Nonetheless, I shall still be very much connected to his life through technology and frequent visits, even though I will be 6 hours away....... 

We play this game I call Luv Bug's version of hide and seek.  He says, "Mommy go hide", and I hide in the same spot I have hidden in for the last 5 years.  He is always so surprised to find me.  Then it is his turn to hide and I count to ten.  Then I start calling, "Where is my Luv Bug?"  I spot him and say "There you are!!".  He says, Mommy you saved me!"

And I reply, "Oh no, Alexander.  It was you who saved me."  Because of what I went through with him, the profound heartache, the intense pain, the medical ignorance, broke me wide open.

And that, my dear friends, is how the light got in.

What I would like to humbly ask from my readers is this:  If you feel so guided, would you please include us in your prayers?  Transition is never easy.  I am most certain your prayers would assist in this challenging time, and I would be very grateful.  Prayers can move mountains. 

You are greatly LOVED.  Have a Peaceful week!

Ruth 
 













  

Change

Some days I find it quite the challenge to remain inspired while roaming about this planet like a lamb amongst a den of rabid wolves.  Even knowing that they can't touch me, I still find it disheartening that so many are still being capitalized off of and have no idea about this in addition to keeping their minds closed.  This motivates me to continue sharing what I have come to understand, as no force is involved to arrive here and more often than not it is because they are ready to open their mind to more.  To face their fears, to integrate their shadow and arrive at self love.  This makes my heart happy.  BUT I had to do this for myself first and it is an ongoing, continuing process.  You can't give what you don't have, right?

I have always wanted to be of service to others.  When I went into nursing, back in the day when there was no Lord Google, or Youtube (GASP!!!!), I told myself I wanted to do this profession because I wanted to help people.  Little did I know that the bureaucratic/political red tape that binds us along with the ANA and AMA governance nearly killed my whole plan and made it virtually impossible to truly help people, not to mention how it tried and nearly succeeded in taking my soul.  I now see that the foundation of the healthcare profession is built on fear, not truth.  There is another way to care for others and not get involved in all that nonsense that the world tries to impose on a soul.  It's called doing your own work. Simple really as in when you elevate yourself you elevate others naturally.  No huge energy expenditure, no waste of time.  It's a win win. 

Who really knows who they are at 18, let alone have done all the personal work necessary to clear out their ancestral and karmic baggage before thinking about what to devote the rest of their lives to.  Most do not even consider this and it contributes to a whole lot of suffering.  They go to a university and a huge amount of money is spent without any guarantee that it will provide them with employment, all the while the majority of the time being slowly hypnotized into seeking without rather than seek within.  They may marry before they even find their own voice.  They may have children and then the lessons that the parents did not clear will be passed on usually in a bigger experience.    

But when we look within, and find that there is a light there so profoundly loving and infinite we feel compelled to do our own work.  We realize that it is not selfish to do this and actually see the real selfishness lies in NOT doing it.  All of our lessons/challenges become the opportunities to love deeper, practice patience, grow deeper in faith and free OURSELVES from the bondage that has run rampant on this planet.  We stop feeling any need to project blame and instead ask God, "why is this situation in my life?  What is the lesson I need to learn from this?"

Time will go on and we will learn to do better.  This will radiate out to the planet and without you ever having to leave your residence you will be contributing greatly to raising the frequency of this planet out of the lower vibrations of guilt, despair, shame, humiliation, greed and lies to one of profound integrity and genuine love.  Everything is energy.  This truth gives me chills! 

I wish for you a peaceful holiday weekend, with profound INDEPENDENCE from all ignorance.

You are profoundly loved.



Ruthie

   

The Judgment of Appearances

When I became more of a learner and observer, life got interesting.  I could CLEARLY see how nothing here, NOTHING is as it seems.  In previous posts I have written how we have nothing but illusions here, illusions of wellness in healthcare (my preferred word is hellcare as it is more accurate), illusions of protection from a military, illusions of spirituality and truth from religion, illusions of wisdom from an education, and illusions of order from a government.  I could go on and on describing more illusions such as that of the child protection services from state funded entities and more (in NJ let me refer you to the atrocities that occurred within the DYFS system around the year 2002), but I am sure that by now you get the idea.  We could go very rabbit hole here and start discussing the fact that there are elites/politicians that are actively practicing satanists who subscribe to pedophilia and they are the majority.  I refer you to the book by John DeCamp entitled "The Franklin Cover Up", as well as the book by Noreen Gosch entitled "Why Johnny can't Come Home."  These are only two views of what has been going on here for eons.  You can also find Youtube videos with them and they are excellent.  Also consider checking out the documentary called "Conspiracy of Silence".  satanists cannot generate their own energy, so they steal it from children and the spiritually naive. (WARNING!! There is exceptionally graphic descriptions of the horrendous abuses in the above mentioned books and documentaries and they may be triggers for you.  Watch mindfully only when you feel fully ready and Spirit Led.)    

I would like to suggest you take a moment and ponder how you arrive at your conclusion of something/someone being "good".  So often we will say, "Oh he is such a good person, blah blah blah," and yet we may only know a small part of who he REALLY is.  While were out campaigning for his "goodness" in truth he could be doing an infinite number of NOT GOOD things that you have no idea about.  So in reality, it is best not to assume goodness on any appearances, for your perspective greatly limits you.  However when one is sensitive as I am, you can read energy exceptionally clearly and recognize the lie, deceit or malicious behavior without the other character ever saying a word.  It gets really interesting when you start to read the mind.  This is a gift to everyone, and all one needs to do to access it is calm down, get yourself out of the frustration/fear vibration and align up with truth.  Learn to trust yourself and your guidance and not doubt.  Doubt is one of the weapons of the enemy, especially self doubt, as he knows that "a house divided against itself cannot stand."  satan goes about here everyday trying to get you to hop on the road to self destruction and your job is to say "NO!  I've got the Divine authority of Jesus Christ and you will now get out of my way." 

Just let him try to violate your free will.  He knows he can't, but do YOU know that? 

And then ye shall know the truth and the truth shall make you free.

Truth be told I absolutely hate it here on Earth as things are profoundly not going to end up well for humans, but I know I am here only on assignment (as the Reverend Bill Johnson says!!).  This is not my home and once I accepted that fact, I was able to relinquish my resistance to the ignorance here and turn it into a passion that feeds souls who are genuinely ready for this information.  Everything is backwards, so many seem to care more about what's on American Idol than how our children, older adults, and animals are being treated, how the planet is truly dying because of our neglect or homelessness and poverty.  We still have people in this country procreating like there is an infinite number of resources still available, instead of being consciously mindful and really taking a truthful look at what is going on.  While it seems that pride goes out and encourages some to hang flags, I feel more cosmically aligned with wanting PEACE for all sentient beings and not just make some contribution to something that causes further separation instead of unity and may fuel another meaningless war.

The good news is that LOVE is now flooding in and correcting everything, however this will look catastrophic to many.  For me, it is not about the quantity of my years here but rather the quality of my seconds and how much did I authentically love.  It is about being of service to the soul rather than the personality.  It is about living devoted to truth and integrity no matter what. 

For me, it is about staying in the Love of God when all hell is breaking out.

Friends, QUESTION EVERYTHING.  Get aligned with Divine Wisdom.

There are two ways to walk to the gas chamber:  Free or Not Free.

No matter what, I sincerely want you all to be FREE.

I love you greatly!

Ruth