When I am merrily trekking my way across the vast wide open land of the internet, on a mission quest for truth, I am always surprised to see when a blogger has used the word "occult", and writes of "Hidden Knowledge", ect. I smile, because yet again, I have run into deception and this post today will hopefully clear all of this up for you, should this be of your concern and should you choose to read this post.
First and foremost, there is NO HIDDEN KNOWLEDGE. No single entity here has any more power to withhold knowledge from anyone else, than say my big toe. However, what these deceitful creatures can do, is instill so much fear and self doubt into you that you can't resonate with truth and therefore will not find it. It is as simple as that people. You essentially hide the truth from yourselves, through your ignorance. Whether that be conscious ignorance or one of fear and such, only you will know. But I can from personal experience guarantee you that once you align up with truth, no matter what it looks like, and stop living in bondage to your false perceptions, things will start to get really interesting. You will be led to so much truth that you may forget to eat, shower and pee. Five days later, after absorbing all the truth you feel you can hold for the time, you then tend to your physical needs so that you can eventually go back and absorb more knowledge. But we must first extend to ourselves the time necessary to integrate it. This is wisdom.
I enjoy the study of Tarot, as did Carl Jung, and there is one teacher I am aware of who is constantly referencing the "mystery schools". And I am like, "et tu, brute"? Mystery schools have no more dibs on spiritual truths than my getting Caran D' Ache Luminance pencils and them making me create art like Picasso. Yes, one can dream, but this to me seems more like a dependence. We have been so completely brainwashed, so deeply conditioned, into believing that everything, including wisdom is outside of ourselves, and hence we have the complications of public education and then if you are lucky enough to survive that then what a treat it must be to get accepted into more debt, uh, I mean college, so that you are guaranteed of being a slave for as long as you have the loans. I personally call that Hell.
Honestly, can you just humor me for a moment and ponder LBG? That means Life Before Google. Hard isn't it, even though it really has not been that long that they have been around. We have deceived ourselves to the point that we don't think we know anything and now have to seek the services of Lord Google, or Lord Youtube. This is because we have lost the divine connection, that right brain, highly intuitive direct line to God that we all have. The good news is it can be restored rather quickly, and this will require diligence on your part to not let the lesser interfere with your mind. Because once they have found out you are awake, they will try to shut you down.
The Divine Feminine has returned here in vast abundance and she is pissed off. There has been such a huge imbalance with the patriarchal society and over used left brain "logic" that the Divine Feminine was essentially hated and shunned. This is not a war against male and female, for we all have each of these qualities within and in a perfect world they would be in Divine Balance. This is not the case, and some very deceitful masculine energies got highly jealous of the creative nature of the feminine and sought to shut it down. And the feminine floundered for a long time. You just need to look at the state of the planet today to see where that got us. Collision course for death and demise of most of the planet actually. That is what the "all powerful" devotion to a "logical" society will do for ya. Just saying.
Let me reiterate here again that this is not a claim that all men are horrendous fiends. No, that would just be most of the males in my family and my ex-husband. Oh and his lawyer. Someone really should check her for a penis and a testosterone level because my lord does she seem to have it in abundance. There is not one caring, compassionate cell in that things entire being. But I digress......
Seriously, it is not just the physical male, but the energetic male that you should be concerned with, as in my experience it is not gender specific. I am sure you can discern some highly masculine energies in a female body and vice versa. What really matters most in my opinion is the energetic signature. To get to this, we need to simplify our lives and de sensitize ourselves so that we can step back into the gift of sensing energies again. I cannot express enough how important this is going to be in the future.
Your choice is simple. Stop hiding from yourself, stop the self deception, eliminate fear and embrace TRUTH no matter what it looks like. By choosing to do so, you will be liberating many souls that have been in bondage for you will be presented with truth and no doubt you will shocked and outraged over what has been going on here. But just as no one else can exercise for you, no one can open your mind to the possibility of truth. You must do that for yourself. And then you will fall down the rabbit hole and so far for me, it has no end. I find amazing truths all the time.
Saturday, January 10, 2015
Thursday, January 8, 2015
What if this were the last year of your life?
How would things be different for you? Would you continue to work? Would you finally find the fearlessness to follow your heart and do what makes your soul sing rather than your bank account happy? Would you become more of a self advocate in an assertive way and not allow others to manipulate and use you as they had been in the past? Would you grab your children and instead of having to compensate for "love" by buying them things, would you love them so well that no words needed to be exchanged, as that love is genuinely felt and requires no words? Would YOU personally wake up to what is truly important, which is the work of our own soul, not the accumulation of things? Materialism is so mother freaking temporary anyway. I imagine that the things most humans seem to find important now, the prestigious job, the many human titles placed on one, the human "power" given by others, the BMWs, and the vacation homes and all of the excesses humans have come to accept as normal would loose all importance in the face of eminent global demise and catastrophic events. Which is exactly what is going on here. The Hopi call this the Great Purification. Our souls know that all we are taking with us when we depart this world is the advancement on our consciousness. Learning our own lessons, facing our shadow, and living in self love.
It is no joke that this planet cannot take much more of the outrageous abuse that has been placed upon her, before she starts to shake herself off. I personally feel that Mother Earth has been far too tolerant of all of the ignorance that some of her children have partaken in. It would not surprise me in the least, say, if Yellowstone woke up, or an asteroid came to visit and San Andreas cracked open. With all the suppressed energy that is inside of people today and has been accumulating for eons, those events would simply be a reflection of all the suppressed anger and rage releasing itself in an external process through Mother Earth. Just as when a body meridian cannot hold more energy, it will derange its energy and ultimately cause problems in another meridian or body organ in time.
Our beautiful planet is directly related to us and we to her, and if we don't wise up, pay attention to her signs, release our suppressed energy and operate as a GLOBAL UNITY of cooperation instead of competition, as one song (or UNI-VERSE), it is simply game over. I am unafraid of whatever is to come. I simply choose to remain awake and aware. I know my genuine worth is not dependent on what I have obtained here, nor is it relevant to anyone's opinion of me. I continue to work on my own consciousness, while keeping hypocrisy out of the equation and learn as much truth as I am capable of absorbing.
I feel that if more people ponder this as a very real potential scenario, they will come to find genuine worth. They will place value on things in a much different way. They will start transitioning over to authentic love and not conform to the ridiculous, over hyped, left brained patriarchal society that has been in force here for some time. Because that way leads to extinction.
Choose to see differently. Make wiser decisions on what is truly important. Explore how your choices will effect others. All excesses create debts. Einstein stated "that energy is neither created nor destroyed. It merely changes form." Just where do you think that energy is harnessed from? Humans and more correctly, the suffering of humans. Why do you think sacrifices were/are held in such regard? Sacrifices are a Last Testament activity. Humans here have remained naïve and have not fully transitioned into the New Testament law (which operates on the principle of Forgiveness).
We have thought that we have advanced so far and have become so highly civilized. Reality as I see it shows a much different story. A story of a race who fails to learn its lessons, who gets lost by ego and pride, who gets dazzled by all sorts of Earthly bling, and who gives its power away to those who only seek to capitalize off of them every way they can. Some times it apparently takes the equivalent of dynamite to wake one up out of the slumber. Unfortunately. It doesn't have to be that way, though.
It is no joke that this planet cannot take much more of the outrageous abuse that has been placed upon her, before she starts to shake herself off. I personally feel that Mother Earth has been far too tolerant of all of the ignorance that some of her children have partaken in. It would not surprise me in the least, say, if Yellowstone woke up, or an asteroid came to visit and San Andreas cracked open. With all the suppressed energy that is inside of people today and has been accumulating for eons, those events would simply be a reflection of all the suppressed anger and rage releasing itself in an external process through Mother Earth. Just as when a body meridian cannot hold more energy, it will derange its energy and ultimately cause problems in another meridian or body organ in time.
Our beautiful planet is directly related to us and we to her, and if we don't wise up, pay attention to her signs, release our suppressed energy and operate as a GLOBAL UNITY of cooperation instead of competition, as one song (or UNI-VERSE), it is simply game over. I am unafraid of whatever is to come. I simply choose to remain awake and aware. I know my genuine worth is not dependent on what I have obtained here, nor is it relevant to anyone's opinion of me. I continue to work on my own consciousness, while keeping hypocrisy out of the equation and learn as much truth as I am capable of absorbing.
I feel that if more people ponder this as a very real potential scenario, they will come to find genuine worth. They will place value on things in a much different way. They will start transitioning over to authentic love and not conform to the ridiculous, over hyped, left brained patriarchal society that has been in force here for some time. Because that way leads to extinction.
Choose to see differently. Make wiser decisions on what is truly important. Explore how your choices will effect others. All excesses create debts. Einstein stated "that energy is neither created nor destroyed. It merely changes form." Just where do you think that energy is harnessed from? Humans and more correctly, the suffering of humans. Why do you think sacrifices were/are held in such regard? Sacrifices are a Last Testament activity. Humans here have remained naïve and have not fully transitioned into the New Testament law (which operates on the principle of Forgiveness).
We have thought that we have advanced so far and have become so highly civilized. Reality as I see it shows a much different story. A story of a race who fails to learn its lessons, who gets lost by ego and pride, who gets dazzled by all sorts of Earthly bling, and who gives its power away to those who only seek to capitalize off of them every way they can. Some times it apparently takes the equivalent of dynamite to wake one up out of the slumber. Unfortunately. It doesn't have to be that way, though.
Sunday, January 4, 2015
Diagnosis Earth: Love Deficiency
I can remember way back when I was in nursing school, I had an instructor, Marion, who was married to a doctor. We had class one day, and I remember her stating specifically that "you are not to love your patients". She was looking directly at me while she made that pathological statement. In hindsight, I could have seen that as one of many earlier warnings that healthcare is not what it appears to be, especially if they don't foster a compassionate, loving, truthful presence above all else.
And yet I had a nice smack of reality hit me, years later, and realized healthcare is a business. It is about PROFITS, not people, although it will attempt to distract you from that fact. It does this by giving itself a nice name you will resonate with and probably believe. Something along the lines of Compassionate Mercy Hospital: where will love you like the chicken soup your grandma made you or some religious name you will like, like Our Lady of the Holy Lake of Burning Bushes or some such bullshit. Paaaaaaaaleese people. There is a reason that healthcare is afraid to use the word CURE or to even utilize any of the various holistic technologies or options that have been KNOWN to cure, like Gerson Therapy, Hoxsey, Rife Frequencies, Hulda Clark therapies, homeopathy, energy medicine. The AMA has gone in and shut down people who were truly curing others and confiscated equipment, because it threatened their ability to capitalize off of the sick and vulnerable. It would mean that they would have to let people heal, and then they would not be making the bazillion dollars they do.
I often ask myself (and God) how in the hell did I end on a planet like this, where everything has been running backwards, that they have all these "systems" that do not operate from a foundation of genuine, authentic love, and are actually contributing to the creation of further suffering by keeping the ignorant sick, broke and helpless. Where "miracles" are considered a rarity. Why are there hospitals popping up in abundance? Where people are not operating from love, but rather fear the majority of the time. He told me I am here because it needed a love correction. Uh, excuse me God, but I am going to need a copy of that job description for this Earth mission you sent me on. And let me tell you that I am going to read the damn fine print. A love correction? How in the hoohey am I supposed to accomplish this on a planet so devoid of authentic love, who barely knows the true meaning of unconditional love? Who has traded pity for love? He said, you will be the channel for my love to flow through. He said, "raise your integrity so high that others will feel transformed by the presence of truth and integrity within you, without any words needing to be spoken." He continued, "work on yourself and this will naturally extend out to others. Then you will teach so others will learn". I said oh, well OK then, as long as I can still enjoy my knitting, watercolors and organic pizza occasionally.
People have forgotten that it is not normal to be ill. They have given their power away in any one of a million choices humans are tempted to do that in, and thus have this conditioned belief that everything must come from outside of themselves rather than doing the deep, internal work to clear the issue. They have traded truth for lies, and believe that a doctor knows better than they do about the body temple they are living in. They make excuses for their illnesses, as in "my mother, father, brother, or crazy uncle Burpo had this and so I was "destined to get it too". Bullshit. Dr. Bruce Lipton has proven otherwise and genetics DO NOT predispose us to whatever our predecessors suffered from. Unless you choose to, by not learning to identify, discern, transcend and heal. A line of scripture can also sum this up: "Go and sin no more, lest a worse thing come upon you". I do not like the word sin, as I feel it conjures up feelings of judgment, however, we do find ourselves in significant error of Natural Law often today. Turn on most TV programs and they are inundating you with violence, immorality, and a whole host of other transgressions that those who aren't aware enough to block these attacks on consciousness will be further programmed into thinking these behaviors are normal.
Back to the Love Deficiency diagnosis. That is what I have come to the conclusion to as the major contributing factor in all of the ignorance going on here today. There is a HUGE lack of authentic love in all of our systems here: politics, government, healthcare, education, religion, and even family. There is an abundance of judgment, penalizations, character assassinations, ridiculous labeling, and capitalization of the naïve with a huge effort to conform humans into blind robots. Very limited compassion too, as that itself is a natural extension of love. So when I recognized all of this, it is no wonder we are in the state we are in here. There is VAST DECEPTION here, because there is vast personal self deception, vast personal daily attacks and self judgment and hatred. We are afraid of our own souls it seems, and oh how greatly we suffer for all of this ignorance. We throw humans into prisons as if that is the solution. It's like placing a band aid on an arterial laceration. Totally useless. And how in the hell can any one with two brain cells that actually synapse together could think that this mindless treatment will provide the human with criminal behavior to rehabilitate themselves, I have no idea. Maybe they need to be thrown in jail for their own stupidity. I can see it now.....I herby sentence you to life in prison for your conscious ignorance of thinking that prison is the solution to reform criminal behavior when what really is going on is a lack of authentic love. Welcome to your own hell. Oh, I am having all kinds of flashbacks of the movie Shawshank Redemption right now.
However, if authentic love were at the foundation of all organizations, we would see miracles every single minute of the day. We would see genuine reformation and transformation. We would arrive a forgiveness much quicker, knowing that there is in operation a law that will meet out any judgment on any injustice like a best friend who worked for the WWF. In the presence of Love, the feeling of wanting to do harm to yourself or others in any way would be the last thing that crossed your mind, because you would be feeling so blissful, so complete and whole, so filled with LOVE that nothing else would ever compare nor be able to tempt you out of trading that for anything less.
Consider this: rather than being impressed by the fact that your neurosurgeon graduated from Harvard, be more impressed by the fact that they have chosen to serve Truth, Love and Compassion in all areas of their life. It doesn't hurt that they paid attention in school so they can find that pesky brain tumor for you, but far too much weight has been placed on the accumulation of education which is not necessarily directly related to the amount of WISDOM one actually obtains, nor is it any reflection of what their soul and heart serve. Would you want your heart surgery performed by someone who does not believe in God? Where can I find this information on your resume, please? No, I do not care that you were vaccinating orphans in Somalia on your summer break in your senior year of medical school, unless it was homeopathic vaccinations. Oh, what, you are calling this religious harassment? I am calling it NECESSARY, God is NOT dependent on any religion therefore this cannot be remotely related to religious harassment (AND FURTHERMORE, I WOULD THINK THAT A HARVARD EDUCATED CHILD LIKE YOURSELF WOULD KNOW THIS ALREADY), and if you don't serve truth, love and God, kindly get out of my way and go find some poor soul who cares not what you believe in or how much integrity you have, one who is even maybe even dazzled by your ivy league credentials. You do not meet my objectives for being granted the privilege of working with me. Any time you are being given an opportunity to work with another human being, it is a PRIVILEGE. If you do not operate from Love, you are truly wasting my time, not to mention my money. This does not make Ruth happy.
Before someone finds the above offensive, and thinks perhaps I am against all medical professionals, and runs off jumping to conclusions that may not be anything close to truth and therefore potentially hurting themselves in the process, hear me out. Yes, there are some very kind, compassionate bright lights within the healthcare profession and I can see this light and pureness about these rare souls. I can feel the powerful presence they carry around just by being who they are, not by the personality they have. It should be these kinds of qualities that are sought after in the healthcare profession. I just have found that the majority of the medical profession has fallen so far away from LOVE and so much into FEAR/GREED that it is not consistently of genuine service to humanity, as it seeks to create a dependency on itself due to its greed and service to self energy. In this way its like heroin. I personally find healthcare more like hellcare, with the rare exception that it is of service when there is an emergency situation, say if you inadvertently chewed off your entire right arm while in your 7th meeting of the day without any break to pee or obtain that snickers bar to "keep you going" and are now spewing arterial blood all over the meeting room and the boss is not looking the least bit amused. Another exception would be necessary surgical intervention, say like when you stepped on that pesky porcupine while boldly hiking the Appalachians shoeless and couldn't shake him off. I am sure there are other emergency moments and by now you get the idea. There must be a Need, NOT a DEPENDENCY. For the latter there may be a twelve step program somewhere that can help. Hi, my name is Clueless, and I have an addiction to over utilizing healthcare instead of obtaining my divine authority, taking back my power, doing my own work, integrating my shadow, ceasing the projection of blame, eating wholefoods, unconditionally loving myself, and simplifying my life.
True reform must start with each individual soul, personally. Look at and confront all your demons and they will flee from you in the light of truth and self love, which they cannot stand. Remove the specks from your own eyes before you go running off to save planet Earth, advocating for Global reform, or taking an activist stance against Monsatan (formerly known as Monsanto). All of these endeavors are well and good, but if you are partaking in hypocrisy by not doing your own work, and bringing genuine love into your own life first, you are of no help to anything else, nor can you give what you do not have. Create another channel in yourself for the love of God to pour through. I am most certain you will not regret it. By doing so, you are making a personal declaration of Love without having to say a word and thereby raising the level of global integrity on this planet and thus making the environment much less hospitable for those who do not operate from love.
And yet I had a nice smack of reality hit me, years later, and realized healthcare is a business. It is about PROFITS, not people, although it will attempt to distract you from that fact. It does this by giving itself a nice name you will resonate with and probably believe. Something along the lines of Compassionate Mercy Hospital: where will love you like the chicken soup your grandma made you or some religious name you will like, like Our Lady of the Holy Lake of Burning Bushes or some such bullshit. Paaaaaaaaleese people. There is a reason that healthcare is afraid to use the word CURE or to even utilize any of the various holistic technologies or options that have been KNOWN to cure, like Gerson Therapy, Hoxsey, Rife Frequencies, Hulda Clark therapies, homeopathy, energy medicine. The AMA has gone in and shut down people who were truly curing others and confiscated equipment, because it threatened their ability to capitalize off of the sick and vulnerable. It would mean that they would have to let people heal, and then they would not be making the bazillion dollars they do.
I often ask myself (and God) how in the hell did I end on a planet like this, where everything has been running backwards, that they have all these "systems" that do not operate from a foundation of genuine, authentic love, and are actually contributing to the creation of further suffering by keeping the ignorant sick, broke and helpless. Where "miracles" are considered a rarity. Why are there hospitals popping up in abundance? Where people are not operating from love, but rather fear the majority of the time. He told me I am here because it needed a love correction. Uh, excuse me God, but I am going to need a copy of that job description for this Earth mission you sent me on. And let me tell you that I am going to read the damn fine print. A love correction? How in the hoohey am I supposed to accomplish this on a planet so devoid of authentic love, who barely knows the true meaning of unconditional love? Who has traded pity for love? He said, you will be the channel for my love to flow through. He said, "raise your integrity so high that others will feel transformed by the presence of truth and integrity within you, without any words needing to be spoken." He continued, "work on yourself and this will naturally extend out to others. Then you will teach so others will learn". I said oh, well OK then, as long as I can still enjoy my knitting, watercolors and organic pizza occasionally.
People have forgotten that it is not normal to be ill. They have given their power away in any one of a million choices humans are tempted to do that in, and thus have this conditioned belief that everything must come from outside of themselves rather than doing the deep, internal work to clear the issue. They have traded truth for lies, and believe that a doctor knows better than they do about the body temple they are living in. They make excuses for their illnesses, as in "my mother, father, brother, or crazy uncle Burpo had this and so I was "destined to get it too". Bullshit. Dr. Bruce Lipton has proven otherwise and genetics DO NOT predispose us to whatever our predecessors suffered from. Unless you choose to, by not learning to identify, discern, transcend and heal. A line of scripture can also sum this up: "Go and sin no more, lest a worse thing come upon you". I do not like the word sin, as I feel it conjures up feelings of judgment, however, we do find ourselves in significant error of Natural Law often today. Turn on most TV programs and they are inundating you with violence, immorality, and a whole host of other transgressions that those who aren't aware enough to block these attacks on consciousness will be further programmed into thinking these behaviors are normal.
Back to the Love Deficiency diagnosis. That is what I have come to the conclusion to as the major contributing factor in all of the ignorance going on here today. There is a HUGE lack of authentic love in all of our systems here: politics, government, healthcare, education, religion, and even family. There is an abundance of judgment, penalizations, character assassinations, ridiculous labeling, and capitalization of the naïve with a huge effort to conform humans into blind robots. Very limited compassion too, as that itself is a natural extension of love. So when I recognized all of this, it is no wonder we are in the state we are in here. There is VAST DECEPTION here, because there is vast personal self deception, vast personal daily attacks and self judgment and hatred. We are afraid of our own souls it seems, and oh how greatly we suffer for all of this ignorance. We throw humans into prisons as if that is the solution. It's like placing a band aid on an arterial laceration. Totally useless. And how in the hell can any one with two brain cells that actually synapse together could think that this mindless treatment will provide the human with criminal behavior to rehabilitate themselves, I have no idea. Maybe they need to be thrown in jail for their own stupidity. I can see it now.....I herby sentence you to life in prison for your conscious ignorance of thinking that prison is the solution to reform criminal behavior when what really is going on is a lack of authentic love. Welcome to your own hell. Oh, I am having all kinds of flashbacks of the movie Shawshank Redemption right now.
However, if authentic love were at the foundation of all organizations, we would see miracles every single minute of the day. We would see genuine reformation and transformation. We would arrive a forgiveness much quicker, knowing that there is in operation a law that will meet out any judgment on any injustice like a best friend who worked for the WWF. In the presence of Love, the feeling of wanting to do harm to yourself or others in any way would be the last thing that crossed your mind, because you would be feeling so blissful, so complete and whole, so filled with LOVE that nothing else would ever compare nor be able to tempt you out of trading that for anything less.
Consider this: rather than being impressed by the fact that your neurosurgeon graduated from Harvard, be more impressed by the fact that they have chosen to serve Truth, Love and Compassion in all areas of their life. It doesn't hurt that they paid attention in school so they can find that pesky brain tumor for you, but far too much weight has been placed on the accumulation of education which is not necessarily directly related to the amount of WISDOM one actually obtains, nor is it any reflection of what their soul and heart serve. Would you want your heart surgery performed by someone who does not believe in God? Where can I find this information on your resume, please? No, I do not care that you were vaccinating orphans in Somalia on your summer break in your senior year of medical school, unless it was homeopathic vaccinations. Oh, what, you are calling this religious harassment? I am calling it NECESSARY, God is NOT dependent on any religion therefore this cannot be remotely related to religious harassment (AND FURTHERMORE, I WOULD THINK THAT A HARVARD EDUCATED CHILD LIKE YOURSELF WOULD KNOW THIS ALREADY), and if you don't serve truth, love and God, kindly get out of my way and go find some poor soul who cares not what you believe in or how much integrity you have, one who is even maybe even dazzled by your ivy league credentials. You do not meet my objectives for being granted the privilege of working with me. Any time you are being given an opportunity to work with another human being, it is a PRIVILEGE. If you do not operate from Love, you are truly wasting my time, not to mention my money. This does not make Ruth happy.
Before someone finds the above offensive, and thinks perhaps I am against all medical professionals, and runs off jumping to conclusions that may not be anything close to truth and therefore potentially hurting themselves in the process, hear me out. Yes, there are some very kind, compassionate bright lights within the healthcare profession and I can see this light and pureness about these rare souls. I can feel the powerful presence they carry around just by being who they are, not by the personality they have. It should be these kinds of qualities that are sought after in the healthcare profession. I just have found that the majority of the medical profession has fallen so far away from LOVE and so much into FEAR/GREED that it is not consistently of genuine service to humanity, as it seeks to create a dependency on itself due to its greed and service to self energy. In this way its like heroin. I personally find healthcare more like hellcare, with the rare exception that it is of service when there is an emergency situation, say if you inadvertently chewed off your entire right arm while in your 7th meeting of the day without any break to pee or obtain that snickers bar to "keep you going" and are now spewing arterial blood all over the meeting room and the boss is not looking the least bit amused. Another exception would be necessary surgical intervention, say like when you stepped on that pesky porcupine while boldly hiking the Appalachians shoeless and couldn't shake him off. I am sure there are other emergency moments and by now you get the idea. There must be a Need, NOT a DEPENDENCY. For the latter there may be a twelve step program somewhere that can help. Hi, my name is Clueless, and I have an addiction to over utilizing healthcare instead of obtaining my divine authority, taking back my power, doing my own work, integrating my shadow, ceasing the projection of blame, eating wholefoods, unconditionally loving myself, and simplifying my life.
True reform must start with each individual soul, personally. Look at and confront all your demons and they will flee from you in the light of truth and self love, which they cannot stand. Remove the specks from your own eyes before you go running off to save planet Earth, advocating for Global reform, or taking an activist stance against Monsatan (formerly known as Monsanto). All of these endeavors are well and good, but if you are partaking in hypocrisy by not doing your own work, and bringing genuine love into your own life first, you are of no help to anything else, nor can you give what you do not have. Create another channel in yourself for the love of God to pour through. I am most certain you will not regret it. By doing so, you are making a personal declaration of Love without having to say a word and thereby raising the level of global integrity on this planet and thus making the environment much less hospitable for those who do not operate from love.
Saturday, December 20, 2014
Knowledge Protects, Ignorance Endangers
The title above is reflective of one of my favorite truths, among many, that I obtained while reading the Cassiopaean Material as obtained by Laura Knight-Jadczyk. This phrase been returning to my conscious over and over lately and I feel guided to share it here on this blog. When I say that great, great change is coming, I want as many souls as prepared as possible. However, I am also aware that one cannot save people from themselves, and nothing is ever achieved by force. This blog is the perfect vehicle for the information as those who are truly ready will find it.
The more naïve, or consciously ignorant one is, the greater the ability to be taken advantage of by those who do not mean you well. Make NO MISTAKE, there is and has been for many eons here, a deceptive, lying, service to self essence that I choose to note as evil, and it can only continue by stealing your light and keeping you in bondage through your ignorance. I chose to call it satan (left lower case purposefully, as I know it is a COWARD), although it has been noted as demons, archons, the jinn, ect. in other philosophies.
All this time, the level of energetic vibration on this planet was low enough for it to have dominion here. By this I mean that humanity had not risen to a level where they consistently lived by integrity, truth and love (as noted in Dr. David Hawkins' work on his map of consciousness). I liken it to how illness can settle in a body that is acidic more easily than if it is in an alkaline state. This planet has endured being in an "acidic state" for a very long time and therefore has been infested with parasites (evil). They have infested every single system we have here, schools, religion, police, healthcare and government. They are your neighbors, your bosses, your coworkers. Being clever, they know they shall only have the position they do as long as they keep the masses ignorant, distracted and enslaved.
Our world today is the living result of what our ignorance has done. By our failure to process and integrate our own darkness and learn the wonderful gift that is self love and forgiveness we have given authority to everything outside of ourselves. The microcosm is reflective of the macrocosm. If you are in to self deception, then you will be deceived. If you lie, you will be lied to. If you violate any universal law, you will be held accountable, and as a result will be a slave. Evil knows this, and this is why at every single opportunity it seeks to tempt humans. It will find all of your weakness and play those buttons. It will do everything it can to PROVOKE you into some spiritual violation of universal law and therefore subject you to the bondage of slavery and great suffering.
All because we did NOT KNOW. Because we adopted (or was conditioned by) some incorrect beliefs when young, we make rationalizations and excuses for all of the evil on this planet. We tell ourselves "that's just the way it is here". War is not necessary, and yet our own government brainwashes the hypnotized masses into believing that killing is necessary in order to "defend our country". Need I remind the reader that there were never any weapons of mass destruction? They buy into the lie, giving in to either fear of "some possible threat to our country" or by ensnaring the EGO and PRIDE, which are the foundation of those systems.
The rabbit hole is dark and deep people. I fell in long ago, and I thank God I did. Nothing, absolutely NOTHING is as it seems here. It is all just appearances and you are living a life according to the images of your very limited perception that has been corrupted by media, religion and family. Most are vastly in need of a human version of Norton Antivirus. If I were to tell you what is really going on and explain the extreme violations that are being committed on humanity, and even more alarming on innocent children, I guarantee that you would be outraged as you never have in your whole life. I suggest that you make a personal, conscious choice to line up with truth no matter what it looks like, the universe will support that by presenting you with the material when you are ready to integrate it. Chances are that you will start to remember what you had buried away eons ago.
Choose to get out of bondage by facing your feelings and feeling them not numbing them, knowing your worth, loving yourself unconditionally. Do not haphazardly buy into what anyone is saying, question everything. Look fear right in its face and say you are so done in my life. Forgive yourself completely. Cease with the self deception, self judgment and self delusion. By doing our work in these areas we are making ourselves part of the spiritual team of light, and we become untouchable by the evil creatures on this planet. They know who is awake and it pisses them off to no end. They are swimming in their own deep sea of fear and this is what shall contribute to their end very soon. All of the hidden deceit, all of the highly malicious acts committed against spirit are coming out into the broad light of day and they have no where to hide. This makes me immensely happy. Check mate, satan. Any move he makes now will result in his end.
Of course, being that you are blessed to have free will, you can make the decision to stay asleep and ignorant of the truth of reality here. That choice will most likely lead to the end of your existence but not before a great amount of suffering and pain are experienced in your life. Personally, I would much prefer that you live and shine that lightly so bright that it blinds all ignorance. You are a great light if you found this blog, for their are no coincidences. You were meant to find this blog because there is something here that you were ready to learn.
The more naïve, or consciously ignorant one is, the greater the ability to be taken advantage of by those who do not mean you well. Make NO MISTAKE, there is and has been for many eons here, a deceptive, lying, service to self essence that I choose to note as evil, and it can only continue by stealing your light and keeping you in bondage through your ignorance. I chose to call it satan (left lower case purposefully, as I know it is a COWARD), although it has been noted as demons, archons, the jinn, ect. in other philosophies.
All this time, the level of energetic vibration on this planet was low enough for it to have dominion here. By this I mean that humanity had not risen to a level where they consistently lived by integrity, truth and love (as noted in Dr. David Hawkins' work on his map of consciousness). I liken it to how illness can settle in a body that is acidic more easily than if it is in an alkaline state. This planet has endured being in an "acidic state" for a very long time and therefore has been infested with parasites (evil). They have infested every single system we have here, schools, religion, police, healthcare and government. They are your neighbors, your bosses, your coworkers. Being clever, they know they shall only have the position they do as long as they keep the masses ignorant, distracted and enslaved.
Our world today is the living result of what our ignorance has done. By our failure to process and integrate our own darkness and learn the wonderful gift that is self love and forgiveness we have given authority to everything outside of ourselves. The microcosm is reflective of the macrocosm. If you are in to self deception, then you will be deceived. If you lie, you will be lied to. If you violate any universal law, you will be held accountable, and as a result will be a slave. Evil knows this, and this is why at every single opportunity it seeks to tempt humans. It will find all of your weakness and play those buttons. It will do everything it can to PROVOKE you into some spiritual violation of universal law and therefore subject you to the bondage of slavery and great suffering.
All because we did NOT KNOW. Because we adopted (or was conditioned by) some incorrect beliefs when young, we make rationalizations and excuses for all of the evil on this planet. We tell ourselves "that's just the way it is here". War is not necessary, and yet our own government brainwashes the hypnotized masses into believing that killing is necessary in order to "defend our country". Need I remind the reader that there were never any weapons of mass destruction? They buy into the lie, giving in to either fear of "some possible threat to our country" or by ensnaring the EGO and PRIDE, which are the foundation of those systems.
The rabbit hole is dark and deep people. I fell in long ago, and I thank God I did. Nothing, absolutely NOTHING is as it seems here. It is all just appearances and you are living a life according to the images of your very limited perception that has been corrupted by media, religion and family. Most are vastly in need of a human version of Norton Antivirus. If I were to tell you what is really going on and explain the extreme violations that are being committed on humanity, and even more alarming on innocent children, I guarantee that you would be outraged as you never have in your whole life. I suggest that you make a personal, conscious choice to line up with truth no matter what it looks like, the universe will support that by presenting you with the material when you are ready to integrate it. Chances are that you will start to remember what you had buried away eons ago.
Choose to get out of bondage by facing your feelings and feeling them not numbing them, knowing your worth, loving yourself unconditionally. Do not haphazardly buy into what anyone is saying, question everything. Look fear right in its face and say you are so done in my life. Forgive yourself completely. Cease with the self deception, self judgment and self delusion. By doing our work in these areas we are making ourselves part of the spiritual team of light, and we become untouchable by the evil creatures on this planet. They know who is awake and it pisses them off to no end. They are swimming in their own deep sea of fear and this is what shall contribute to their end very soon. All of the hidden deceit, all of the highly malicious acts committed against spirit are coming out into the broad light of day and they have no where to hide. This makes me immensely happy. Check mate, satan. Any move he makes now will result in his end.
Of course, being that you are blessed to have free will, you can make the decision to stay asleep and ignorant of the truth of reality here. That choice will most likely lead to the end of your existence but not before a great amount of suffering and pain are experienced in your life. Personally, I would much prefer that you live and shine that lightly so bright that it blinds all ignorance. You are a great light if you found this blog, for their are no coincidences. You were meant to find this blog because there is something here that you were ready to learn.
Friday, December 19, 2014
Love Defined
It has been my observation for many years that most humans on this planet use the word love incorrectly. They do not come close to the comprehension of genuine, authentic love, but rather more of a lust/desire for something. The word itself has been inappropriately used for a long time here, much as the word God has been misused and therefore the subject of much debate. My intention with this post is to share my opinion and hopefully provide you the reader with a new perspective that you may be open to consider for your own life experience.
Take for a moment to pondering what you think love means. More likely than not, you may attach what you learned in childhood to how you define love and its probably conditional. "I will love you if you give me this, or buy me this, or do this for me." Not love. That, unfortunately is bondage and more like a hostage situation for you, for it keeps you in the never ending cycle of conditional "love". In my own family I can not even begin to explain the ignorance that dominated and looking back with my understanding of things now, was not anything even close to love. It was more of a game of pity, hatred and horrible, horrible attacks to break the spirit and great emotional and physical pain. Ultimately all of this ignorance would progress to actual manifested dis-ease.
Love does not judge. Love unconditionally accepts you. Love is the only energy that offers genuine healing, or for that matter protection. Love is an actual state of being. By operating from a place of Divine Love, one gains Spiritual Authority. One has the power then to hold all others ACCOUNTABLE for their ignorance. What I see happen often is that folks are not operating from love, but rather from fear, guilt, shame, self pity and therefore they suffer greatly.
I had asthma horribly as a child. Not surprising, since now I can see the relationship between the energetic disturbance and the profound sadness my soul was feeling manifested in this way through my lungs. In Chinese medicine, the lungs are an area that is related to grief and sadness, and since I was already in the boat of suppressing my truths even then, it expressed itself as the energetic, physical derangement in the form of asthma. Many, many times I would wake up, unable to breathe and my mother would be at work. I would try to wake up my father and all he ever did was flip me the bird. I was around the age of seven at that time. I would sit on my bedroom floor, with every breath feeling like I was trying to accomplish it with a ton of pressure like an oppressive band around my entire thoracic area and just try to wait for my mother to arrive home to take me to the hospital. I remember her mentioning to me how on one occasion she came home from work on the night shift and found me blue. My father was still sleeping. I was taken to the ER and they informed her that my oxygenation was far below what was considered acceptable. This however, did not ever influence her enough to not leave me in the care of my incompetent, pathological father after that.
I mention this for the following reasons. Asthma affected a large part of my life up until I learned to unconditionally LOVE MYSELF ENOUGH to follow through with divorce and make other necessary changes in my life. It was amazing the transformation. I used to wake up frequently to use an inhaler nearly every single night. Not long after leaving my ex husband I have not had any reason to ever use an inhaler again.
Children give away their power so freely, out of their naïve nature and trusting personality. Someone buys them a new desired thing, and they make that person a "God" and just donate some free energy to them. There are many deranged energies on this planet who know the vast pureness of energy in children and they do all they can to extract that light. These creatures are unable to generate their own energy, since they do NOT operate from a state of love and therefore steal it from the unaware or the young and/or naïve.
Family conditioning for me was largely a factor as well. Those I was around operated from a place of pity, feeling sorry for people including their own selves which kept them locked in a very low vibration making them easy predation for those who operate in those dimensions. This behavior was also FORCED onto me as a child. For example, I had a younger brother who for a variety of reasons could not get himself together and live his life with truth and integrity. My mother and her mother repeatedly would bail him out of whatever jam he was in, only to ultimately be used and manipulated. This would result in their having anger over some thing he had done, and yet they placed themselves in this position since they personally defined love as having to do something rather than holding him genuinely accountable and calling him on his nonsense. Also, because they did not do their own work, clearing out their shadow material, they were imposed upon frequently and taken advantage of by darker forces.
Feeling sorry or having pity for anyone is not loving at all and yet this is what goes on all over the globe every single day. Out of some distorted perceptions that were/are based on incomplete beliefs/opinions they had taken on as truth they set themselves to be slaves to ignorance. They incorrectly applied those lower vibrations rather than genuine love. Genuine love does not ever diminished the spirit, and does NOT mean that we have to all martyr ourselves in the process of "loving" another. Rather it asks us to save ourselves, do our own work first and then set about correcting others from a place of love rather than judgment. So many are out there trying to save everybody else from themselves instead of doing their own work. Their is no authority in this as we cannot ever give something to another that we have not first given to ourselves.
Another area that this causes drama in is in marriages. You are probably aware of the high divorce rate in this country. Perhaps this is because we are seeking something outside of ourselves to complete us rather than starting with perfect self love initially. In reality nothing good will we ever experience until we get right with our own soul and learn to unconditionally love our own being with all of our faults and limitations.
I feel this is the Key to the Kingdom of Heaven. Self Love. After we have arrived at self love, all other decisions we make after that will be reflective of that love and suffering will greatly diminish. Living in genuine self love will attract to us much more harmonious experiences in all areas of our lives. We will find great freedom and peace of mind in this. Furthermore, love is not dependent on physicality. It is a bond that is not ever broken, not even in death and the transition into spirit.
Love is truth. Love is forgiveness. Love is acceptance of all of our experiences the good, the bad and the ugly. Love is compassion for all of our life experiences.
Start unconditionally loving yourself. It offers the greatest protection on this planet.
Take for a moment to pondering what you think love means. More likely than not, you may attach what you learned in childhood to how you define love and its probably conditional. "I will love you if you give me this, or buy me this, or do this for me." Not love. That, unfortunately is bondage and more like a hostage situation for you, for it keeps you in the never ending cycle of conditional "love". In my own family I can not even begin to explain the ignorance that dominated and looking back with my understanding of things now, was not anything even close to love. It was more of a game of pity, hatred and horrible, horrible attacks to break the spirit and great emotional and physical pain. Ultimately all of this ignorance would progress to actual manifested dis-ease.
Love does not judge. Love unconditionally accepts you. Love is the only energy that offers genuine healing, or for that matter protection. Love is an actual state of being. By operating from a place of Divine Love, one gains Spiritual Authority. One has the power then to hold all others ACCOUNTABLE for their ignorance. What I see happen often is that folks are not operating from love, but rather from fear, guilt, shame, self pity and therefore they suffer greatly.
I had asthma horribly as a child. Not surprising, since now I can see the relationship between the energetic disturbance and the profound sadness my soul was feeling manifested in this way through my lungs. In Chinese medicine, the lungs are an area that is related to grief and sadness, and since I was already in the boat of suppressing my truths even then, it expressed itself as the energetic, physical derangement in the form of asthma. Many, many times I would wake up, unable to breathe and my mother would be at work. I would try to wake up my father and all he ever did was flip me the bird. I was around the age of seven at that time. I would sit on my bedroom floor, with every breath feeling like I was trying to accomplish it with a ton of pressure like an oppressive band around my entire thoracic area and just try to wait for my mother to arrive home to take me to the hospital. I remember her mentioning to me how on one occasion she came home from work on the night shift and found me blue. My father was still sleeping. I was taken to the ER and they informed her that my oxygenation was far below what was considered acceptable. This however, did not ever influence her enough to not leave me in the care of my incompetent, pathological father after that.
I mention this for the following reasons. Asthma affected a large part of my life up until I learned to unconditionally LOVE MYSELF ENOUGH to follow through with divorce and make other necessary changes in my life. It was amazing the transformation. I used to wake up frequently to use an inhaler nearly every single night. Not long after leaving my ex husband I have not had any reason to ever use an inhaler again.
Children give away their power so freely, out of their naïve nature and trusting personality. Someone buys them a new desired thing, and they make that person a "God" and just donate some free energy to them. There are many deranged energies on this planet who know the vast pureness of energy in children and they do all they can to extract that light. These creatures are unable to generate their own energy, since they do NOT operate from a state of love and therefore steal it from the unaware or the young and/or naïve.
Family conditioning for me was largely a factor as well. Those I was around operated from a place of pity, feeling sorry for people including their own selves which kept them locked in a very low vibration making them easy predation for those who operate in those dimensions. This behavior was also FORCED onto me as a child. For example, I had a younger brother who for a variety of reasons could not get himself together and live his life with truth and integrity. My mother and her mother repeatedly would bail him out of whatever jam he was in, only to ultimately be used and manipulated. This would result in their having anger over some thing he had done, and yet they placed themselves in this position since they personally defined love as having to do something rather than holding him genuinely accountable and calling him on his nonsense. Also, because they did not do their own work, clearing out their shadow material, they were imposed upon frequently and taken advantage of by darker forces.
Feeling sorry or having pity for anyone is not loving at all and yet this is what goes on all over the globe every single day. Out of some distorted perceptions that were/are based on incomplete beliefs/opinions they had taken on as truth they set themselves to be slaves to ignorance. They incorrectly applied those lower vibrations rather than genuine love. Genuine love does not ever diminished the spirit, and does NOT mean that we have to all martyr ourselves in the process of "loving" another. Rather it asks us to save ourselves, do our own work first and then set about correcting others from a place of love rather than judgment. So many are out there trying to save everybody else from themselves instead of doing their own work. Their is no authority in this as we cannot ever give something to another that we have not first given to ourselves.
Another area that this causes drama in is in marriages. You are probably aware of the high divorce rate in this country. Perhaps this is because we are seeking something outside of ourselves to complete us rather than starting with perfect self love initially. In reality nothing good will we ever experience until we get right with our own soul and learn to unconditionally love our own being with all of our faults and limitations.
I feel this is the Key to the Kingdom of Heaven. Self Love. After we have arrived at self love, all other decisions we make after that will be reflective of that love and suffering will greatly diminish. Living in genuine self love will attract to us much more harmonious experiences in all areas of our lives. We will find great freedom and peace of mind in this. Furthermore, love is not dependent on physicality. It is a bond that is not ever broken, not even in death and the transition into spirit.
Love is truth. Love is forgiveness. Love is acceptance of all of our experiences the good, the bad and the ugly. Love is compassion for all of our life experiences.
Start unconditionally loving yourself. It offers the greatest protection on this planet.
Sunday, December 14, 2014
The High Cost of Conscious Ignorance
In light of the fact that I have some downtime due to a flu
kicking my ass, I thought that while I am laid up on my couch and drinking insane
amounts of tea I would share some wisdom on the blog. My intentions with these topics is to perhaps
open up a new perspective within the reader so that they may perhaps
become more willing to entertain some alternative thoughts/views that just may assist them in their journey here.
There are some big things that will start or have already
started to come into effect as a part of the cleansing that needs to occur here. The Hopi call it the Great Purification. Mother Earth has definitely not been given
the admiration, LOVE, and respect she deserves by the children that have been
here for eons and therefore she will ultimately preserve her own existence by
what will look like catastrophic devastation to many. As a matter of fact, some of the governmental
systems on this planet know this is on its way and think that they can preserve
their own human existence. Seed vaults
have been created, underground territories have been staked out and lots of
money has been spent all on very futile efforts to think that they can save
themselves. The ONLY way one can save themselves
is to live in alignment with Divine Love.
No one can hide from Karma. Can
you see how useless money will be when we are looking at a mass of X class
flares hurling their way to this beautiful blue planet? Or how about when the volcanos start to erupt?
Are you going to think “oh shit and now WHY WHY WHY did I contribute so much to
my 401K only for me to not live to spend it?”
That could be a very real scenario my friends.
We must immediately cease the service to self mentality, the opportunistic virus-like behavior and start living in harmony with our own soul, nature and Mother Earth. NOT OUR PERSONALITY. Consider the weather extremes, droughts, earthquakes and changes in animal behavior and you will have some idea of what more is to come. Make no mistake guys, Nature will always win. Always.
I remember years ago when I came across the works of Dr.
David Hawkins, who wrote Power vs. Force among many books and I consider his
work to be of integrity, although I don’t agree with all of his opinions. He created this map of consciousness that
calibrated levels of states of being and essentially the take home point is
that above the level of 200, which is the level of courage and integrity, its
energy is constructive to life and below the level of 200 is destructive to
life. It was no surprise at all that the
global calibration of consciousness on this planet was that 78% of humanity
calibrated BELOW THE LEVEL OF 200. Below
the level of integrity, below the level of truth. Is it any wonder then that all these systems
that have been created here are backwards because they are just images put out
there to make you believe you are cared for, protected and educated but really
none of that is truth. Education does
not provide wisdom, religion does not promote spirituality, unconditional love
or truth, healthcare does not heal or cure and the government/military do not
protect its people. In fact, most all of
these systems have brainwashed the masses into believing that they do, that
they NEED THEM and have thus created an unhealthy codependency on what does not
work. Most of these systems are highly
corrupted and in need of an Earthly Norton antivirus to clean house. This is not to say that there are not the
rare souls of light who actually are genuine in those professions, however they
are the minority and are usually very naïve and clueless about what is really
going on here and thus subject themselves to the disharmonious energies of
those who can and will capitalize off of their ignorance.
I have been partaking in spiritual study for many years and
have found that the more that I have faced my fears and demons, the more that I
aligned with Truth, the more truth aligned up with me. For our war is really among principles and principalities
and the first war to be won is the war within the self. There is a wonderful documentary called
Awakening as One on Youtube that really hits on the better points of this inner
Armageddon. Things that would not ever cross the average
mind on this planet cross mine on a frequent basis or have been part of my life
experience. I have found it very true
that “when the student is ready, the teacher appears”, for if you were to be
presented with the information before you were ready/willing to accept it or
even fairly consider it you would discount it, attack it or make some kind of
left brain excuse as to why this is not possible or true. I was very connected to spirit when I was
young, and could sense energy and read auras accurately. But after years of seeking validation from my
mother who never acknowledged it, in addition to a variety of other reasons I
ended up suppressing this wonderful gift for many years. I suffered dearly because of this. Whenever I have let self-doubt come into my
life, I have paid a very high price for it, usually in the form of suffering. Our inner voice, that beautiful insight, is
God’s gift to all of us, and sadly it seems that most eventually tune it out
and tune into the cares of this world. This
is the disconnection. The ignorance of
this world has a way of seeming so real.
Albert Einstein has one of my favorite quotes: Reality is an illusion, albeit a very persistent
one.” We get so wrapped up in the daily
dramas of life here, our pain, that we forget that there is much, much more to
this existence of ours. We are here to
learn how to enhance our souls, which come from being committed to growth, to
doing our own work and removing all hypocrisy.
Spirit is calling for
all of us to wake up, slow down, disconnect from the drama that is on this
planet and hear. Quiet your mind, tune
in and reconnect to your Source. Do the
work of your Soul, and lessen the attachment to material things. Ponder who you ARE without anything that you
personally have assigned “value” to, for when seen in the proper perspective it’s
all meaningless. I personally believe its ok to enjoy material
things, but do not ever let them define YOU or allow them to influence your
self worth. Most certainly don’t let
them possess you. You are so much more
than anything this materialistic society could ever give you. You are Divine Love. And that goes with you when your time is up
on this planet. The degrees, the titles,
the BMW, the coach handbag, the jewelry is not going, nor is Source going to
care. It always amazes me when one thinks
that a person with more education is more worthy than someone who has the
education from the school of life. In
the nursing profession it has been my observation that more education is not at
all connected to a better nurse. More
education does not automatically condone that the nurse will be truthful, caring,
compassionate and loving while in her role as a nurse. That little piece of paper does not come with
an automatic guarantee that those high qualities are present in the owner.
Who are you without any of your labels? Who are you when seen through your soul’s
perspective? Who are you without your
religion, your family roles, your peer’s opinion, your career role, your family’s
opinion of you? Who ARE YOU? Define true VALUE and MEANING. No matter how difficult it may be, to thine
own self be true. Ask this question of
yourself daily. Journal on it if you feel
so inclined.
That is the very important question that we should all be
asking ourselves at this time on Earth.
The Bringer’s of the Dawn material states that since the systems on this
Earth won’t be readily given up, they will be taken.
And this will be the catalyst for genuine change here, since it will
encourage people to finally stand up for truth when everything is taken from
them, and they feel that they have nothing left to lose.
Saturday, December 13, 2014
The Dangers of Suppression
A few years ago, when I started studying homeopathy, I started to realize the utter importance of not suppressing anything. This was hard to wrap my neurons around at first, because I had been so brainwashed by my RN education and my very over used left brain. But when I started to meditate more on the meaning of this, I was led to the many deeper truths that I embrace today.
When we suppress ourselves, we are essentially playing with fire and we should be prepared for burns. EVERYTHING IS ENERGY. If you suppress anger, sadness, rage, shame, guilt or humiliation that you have over something or someone, if you don't find a way that works for you to release it, it will come back to haunt you. Or more correctly, it will bring more stress, drama, or illness to your life. Because that energy must find somewhere to go, and if you don't let it out it will cause a derangement of energies that you probably don't want to experience. Unprocessed and unfelt emotions will kick your ass until you realize that you need to get that energy released.
How, do I know all this? Oh, I was the poster child for suppression. My suppressions of deep sadness, grief, anger and shame all took its toll on me until crisis erupted in my life. In the Tarot, one could say that it was a Tower card moment. For a large part of my life, I lived in fear, and had titanic sized shame and guilt for many reasons and I attracted people into my life that would be an external validation of what I felt within. From the time I was very young, I had been on the receiving end of molestation, incest and abuse. Those who were in a position to protect me did not do so, and therefore I had no one I felt safe enough to talk to at that point in my life. I swallowed it all down, and long story short, since I did not clear the family energetic crap I got it presented to me again in my marriage, which was to the absolute most loveless creature on this planet. He is probably a direct descendent of Hitler or Lucifer and I thank the Universe that I finally started to love myself enough that I learned how to file for divorce in the library since I had no money. Lessons are repeated until they are learned and its been my experience that they get bigger and more painful each time so that we can see that maybe the way we were going about living needs to be modified so it doesn't contribute to any further pain. Sadly, for most of us, learning our lessons has required pain to start to open up to a different perspective. By being a little (or a lot) broken is not a failure, its actually how the LIGHT gets into our soul, scrubbing it clean, shining on all the dark places inside and restoring our peace and health eventually.
The key to the kingdom is to first and foremost LOVE YOURSELF. I have planned another post on only LOVE and the genuine meaning of it as I have been led to understanding, but it has been my observation that most of humanity does not truly know what genuine, authentic love is. When we love ourselves, we would not ever dream of doing anything that would be destructive. We would allow ourselves the privilege of feeling whatever emotion is coming up for us and then release it and be done with it.
Some things that have worked for me on clearing my lifetime of suppression are:
Ponder this: your anger has been pushed down inside of you since around the age of 5. You are now at age 33 and just had your first stroke or heart attack. That dark energy you held onto, needed to get out and it saw the best route was through the heart or brain.
One of the most self compassionate things we can do for ourselves is to unsupress everything. By doing so, we are being true to our own souls, and living in the light. We are creating an environment that is conducive to healing and miracles.
Scripture from Matthew 18:3:
Truly I tell you that unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven."
To me, I interpret this as seeing that children naturally say and do whatever is on their minds at the time. The cry, scream, rant and cry harder. If they have emotionally stable and healthy parents, they will allow the child to feel their feelings. Usually children do not make rationalizations or excuses for anyone. And they are letting it out of themselves as they feel NATURALLY GUIDED TO DO.
The systems on this planet do not support healthy emotional release. They have created all sorts of diagnostic labels to place on one who honors nature and allows themselves the right to feel their feelings. Labels like depression, bipolar disorder, and schizophrenia. How nice for our medical society to capitalize off of our pain and misery, eh?
What if those "labels" were just unprocessed energy, either our own, or ancestral? As stated before, everything is energy. If the parents did not clear themselves of their suppressions, then it gets transferred down to their children and usually in a much bigger presentation.
The macrocosm is just a reflection of the microcosm. Ponder the massive, world wide suppressions going on every single second of the day. Is it any wonder then, that volcanos erupt, earthquakes happen, and tornados abound? We have all contributed to this energetic release due to withholding the energy of the emotional experience. I tend to resonate with this picture, and therefore won't be the least bit surprised when Yellowstone fully wakes up.
For your soul's sake, make a commitment to yourself that you will start feeling all of your life, not just the good moments. Embrace and integrate your darkness too. Release it all so that it can be transmuted back into Love. So many feel ashamed when they have anger or rage, as they have been conditioned to believe that its not spiritual to have these feelings. God loves you for your anger. It means you actually care about something. Humans were designed to feel. The problem comes from the years of piling up angry event on angry event until there is an emotional tsunami that needs to be unleashed, and usually that release is in some negative way very similar to an erupting volcano.
Love yourself enough to feel it all and let it go! You deserve liberation from the bondage that carrying these burdens present in your lives.
When we suppress ourselves, we are essentially playing with fire and we should be prepared for burns. EVERYTHING IS ENERGY. If you suppress anger, sadness, rage, shame, guilt or humiliation that you have over something or someone, if you don't find a way that works for you to release it, it will come back to haunt you. Or more correctly, it will bring more stress, drama, or illness to your life. Because that energy must find somewhere to go, and if you don't let it out it will cause a derangement of energies that you probably don't want to experience. Unprocessed and unfelt emotions will kick your ass until you realize that you need to get that energy released.
How, do I know all this? Oh, I was the poster child for suppression. My suppressions of deep sadness, grief, anger and shame all took its toll on me until crisis erupted in my life. In the Tarot, one could say that it was a Tower card moment. For a large part of my life, I lived in fear, and had titanic sized shame and guilt for many reasons and I attracted people into my life that would be an external validation of what I felt within. From the time I was very young, I had been on the receiving end of molestation, incest and abuse. Those who were in a position to protect me did not do so, and therefore I had no one I felt safe enough to talk to at that point in my life. I swallowed it all down, and long story short, since I did not clear the family energetic crap I got it presented to me again in my marriage, which was to the absolute most loveless creature on this planet. He is probably a direct descendent of Hitler or Lucifer and I thank the Universe that I finally started to love myself enough that I learned how to file for divorce in the library since I had no money. Lessons are repeated until they are learned and its been my experience that they get bigger and more painful each time so that we can see that maybe the way we were going about living needs to be modified so it doesn't contribute to any further pain. Sadly, for most of us, learning our lessons has required pain to start to open up to a different perspective. By being a little (or a lot) broken is not a failure, its actually how the LIGHT gets into our soul, scrubbing it clean, shining on all the dark places inside and restoring our peace and health eventually.
The key to the kingdom is to first and foremost LOVE YOURSELF. I have planned another post on only LOVE and the genuine meaning of it as I have been led to understanding, but it has been my observation that most of humanity does not truly know what genuine, authentic love is. When we love ourselves, we would not ever dream of doing anything that would be destructive. We would allow ourselves the privilege of feeling whatever emotion is coming up for us and then release it and be done with it.
Some things that have worked for me on clearing my lifetime of suppression are:
- journaling, as recommended by the Artist's Way
- art, as in watercolor, acrylics and drawing,
- full on imaginary conversation with whomever I am at odds with to just let the steam out.
- Emotional Freedom Technique
- Homeopathy in mind potencies
- walking in sunshine
- absolutely never allow anyone else's opinion to have more weight than your own.
- Yin Yoga
- Self compassion
Ponder this: your anger has been pushed down inside of you since around the age of 5. You are now at age 33 and just had your first stroke or heart attack. That dark energy you held onto, needed to get out and it saw the best route was through the heart or brain.
One of the most self compassionate things we can do for ourselves is to unsupress everything. By doing so, we are being true to our own souls, and living in the light. We are creating an environment that is conducive to healing and miracles.
Scripture from Matthew 18:3:
Truly I tell you that unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven."
To me, I interpret this as seeing that children naturally say and do whatever is on their minds at the time. The cry, scream, rant and cry harder. If they have emotionally stable and healthy parents, they will allow the child to feel their feelings. Usually children do not make rationalizations or excuses for anyone. And they are letting it out of themselves as they feel NATURALLY GUIDED TO DO.
The systems on this planet do not support healthy emotional release. They have created all sorts of diagnostic labels to place on one who honors nature and allows themselves the right to feel their feelings. Labels like depression, bipolar disorder, and schizophrenia. How nice for our medical society to capitalize off of our pain and misery, eh?
What if those "labels" were just unprocessed energy, either our own, or ancestral? As stated before, everything is energy. If the parents did not clear themselves of their suppressions, then it gets transferred down to their children and usually in a much bigger presentation.
The macrocosm is just a reflection of the microcosm. Ponder the massive, world wide suppressions going on every single second of the day. Is it any wonder then, that volcanos erupt, earthquakes happen, and tornados abound? We have all contributed to this energetic release due to withholding the energy of the emotional experience. I tend to resonate with this picture, and therefore won't be the least bit surprised when Yellowstone fully wakes up.
For your soul's sake, make a commitment to yourself that you will start feeling all of your life, not just the good moments. Embrace and integrate your darkness too. Release it all so that it can be transmuted back into Love. So many feel ashamed when they have anger or rage, as they have been conditioned to believe that its not spiritual to have these feelings. God loves you for your anger. It means you actually care about something. Humans were designed to feel. The problem comes from the years of piling up angry event on angry event until there is an emotional tsunami that needs to be unleashed, and usually that release is in some negative way very similar to an erupting volcano.
Love yourself enough to feel it all and let it go! You deserve liberation from the bondage that carrying these burdens present in your lives.
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